journey to raw health

 Change… the one reliable constant in our lives. The Universe reminds us of change with the seasons and the weather. If everything is energy, is it our negative thoughts that bring about natural disasters? And does the bombardment of “bad news” lower our vibration to attract more of the same. As I accepted that as a truth, I understood why I had so many dramatic life experiences growing up. Without the space to process the energy of the experience, I hung on to the pain and attracted more. When I began to learn about focusing on my passion and giving my attention to what I truly wanted, it began to arrive.

I seem to be a slow learner. It is in hindsight that I began to piece together, “When I was doing this, I felt like that. Happy thoughts, happy experiences. letting go of the fear or doubt and taking the leap of faith. Moving into action and paying attention to what shows up.

My sister and I had a conversation today about energy. I have been able to join her in the neighbors’ pool for some casual water aerobics this summer. It had been very rainy all week here, one of the reasons I have not thought about this blog.  I am one of those folks that really need to have contact with the sun. Thus, when it is overcast and rainy, I tend to feel more sadness it seems. So, today I took a half hour and stretched out beside the water to absorb some energy direct from the source. It felt wonderful!

How could anyone possibly ever believe that the Sun is bad for us? There would be no life without it. And having our fuel come from that which is closest to the Sun makes the most sense. It is the easier for us humans to digest, and it has that exchange thing going on with us: they breathe out what we breathe in, we breathe out what they breathe in. No harm done.

I decided to gift myself a “detox” for my bellybutton birthday. I am committing to all Raw and Living foods, one day at a time. No more Soy Delicious. I know how to make it all from raw, but, my self-sabotaging behaviours can keep me from allowing. I want to experience the energy of all raw, explore the emotions that will rise up as I stop altering my reality with  cooked food and stimulants. My first goal is to make it 30 days., one day at a time. 

 My morning coffee will be gone. I probably drink the equivelent of 3 cups every morning, with Soy Hazelnut creamer & honey. I may get a headache. That means I am physically addicted. I will have to try some different herbal teas to take its place because I enjoy the ritual of holding the cup, feeling the warmth, drinking in the aroma and flavor. 

I am off to my second solo shift. When I return, it will be my first day on my detox.   

Tags: Law of Attraction, living foods, addiction, health, life experience by Deborah
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I have been overwhelmed with training for my new job & busy with out-of-town company, so, I stopped looking at my blog. I’ve been blank. I felt I was having to learn so much before I begin my new position. Shadowing both day & night shifts to learn the routine. I will be 3 nights away from my home; watching over the ‘ladies’, fixing their meals, keeping them busy with crafty things. Crayons, coloring books, soft shapes to glue together, Disney movies. Going for rides to see the boats.

Of course, I want them to like me, but, more importantly,  I want them to be happy with their lives, and feel as much in control as they can.

 Is that because I felt my own life was so ‘out of control’ for so many years? Some. 

Accepting ‘what is’ as just that, ‘what is’, with no other attachment. Looking for the Joy in everyday accomplishments.

I will surely be learning from them as I assist them in their lives.

Tags: acceptance, life experience by Deborah
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I consider myself new to blogging. This is my truth today because I have committed myself to not deleting what I have posted. Viewing my history, I could have a ream of words had I not thrown away past journals. That behavior kept my thoughts swirling around in my head. and my actions were quite repetitive. I was stuck. Going nowhere.

My desire to move forward in my life created the need for me to be as honest with myself as I could possibly be, and accepting all of my life experiences as what made me. I am the Light and the Dark. To deny any part is to keep me fractured.

I now recognize that it depends on where I place my focus as to determine the quality of my days. I choose to focus on the Light. I choose to be in service to others, but, in doing so, I must include myself. In order to extend kindness to others, I must also extend kindness to myself. I can not help others if I continue to deny self. I can not love others if I deny love of self.

This is my challenge. To totally accept myself, with all the flaws. To acknowledge my goodness also. To accept the flaws will bring me closer to wholeness. To focus on the goodness will cause it to grow stronger. The Light will shine more. The Darkness will lose it’s power. It is still there, a part of who I am. But, it will fade.

The Light is the higher vibrations. The Light is the “feel good” times. The choice is mine. Today, I choose the Light.

thoughts come and go, yet often stay the same

to get them out is healing

how deeply must one go before they are gone?

Forgiveness is the key

Accepting, I AM  the sum of the parts

Tags: acceptance, forgiveness, Darkness, Light, Law of Attraction by Deborah
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I was required to get a physical in order to start my new employment, and have a Pennsylvania driver’s license. I had just gotten a GA License my last birthday & I am not the proud owner of any vehicle right now.  For now, it is just me and my bicycle.

I was a bit apprehensive about the physical, I had not been to a medial doctor in over 15 years and that had been to have Radial Keratotomy to correct the vision in my left eye. The exam went well. He was a young doctor. I knew of someone who had his last name, my dad’s  barber. He would give my dad vegetables from his garden. I asked if he new the barber. It was his grandfather. I liked that we had a connection. He looked in my ears & throat, had me take some deep breaths and also breathe normally. I passed . I must have the TB test on Tuesday.

 Getting a Pennsylvania Driver’s license on Wednesday afternoon was next on my list. The guy at PennDOT did not understand the mono vision thing, so I was required to go to the eye Doctor for an exam.  I went to DALMO, right on Main St. I wanted to see an eye Doctor. I had not seen one since the RK and I knew my vision had changed.

It had changed. The corrected eye now only sees 20/40 without glasses. My right eye is now 20/70. It actually has gotten better since I have not been wearing glasses to read. I believe that not wearing corrective lenses is what made my vision better in my right eye. I have no way of proving that because I do not know what my prescription was when I wore glasses 15 years ago. But, I think that when you exercise your eyes, your muscles get stronger, thus, improving your ability to see.

I decided I am going to get new glasses in a couple of months. The glasses will help me drive better in the dark. I will be able to use both eyes then, instead of relying on just the left one.

The good news is I passed my physical and I have a PA drivers license now. And the eye doctor told me that from looking inside my eyes he can tell that I have good health. I am set to go with my new job.

Tags: health, life experience by Deborah
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I have my first day of training for my new job with the ARC tomorrow. But, first I will work at the chiropractor’s office giving 2 half hour massages. I will be giving notice to the owner that I will be ending my employment as a therapist by the months end. It is because I love myself enough to know that I am not valued there. The pay is low. I knew that when I started, but, there is also not enough work for me to make a living. And we are very different in how we help clients. I find myself compelled to speak with them about their eating habits and lifestyle. Getting adjusted and having a massage is not the only thing that people need guidance with. My hands feel the toxicity and I know that they have to change their lifestyle if they are to regain health.

I am writing a proposal to present to the YMCA or the YWCA. I will be teaching a series of classes on how to transition to healthier eating; introducing them to living and raw foods with a series of food preparation classes, recommending they eliminate all sugar and artificial sweeteners, reducing and eventually eliminating all meat and especially dairy products. People need to know the truth about our food supply and the lies that have been told to them about what they should eat for optimal health.

I know that this is my life’s purpose! Why else would I have been given a name whose initials spell D I E T ?

Tags: artificial sweeteners, not milk, raw foods, living foods, life experience by Deborah
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